Colon Cleanse Yuk

Hi

Well I'm on the 4th day of the colon cleanse. Three days of a slow down of eating and then the start of a complete fast today. I keep forgetting to drink the stuff every three hours and I get hungry and think OOPS

I'm feeling more clear headed already. It's so odd but I'm waiting for the crazy poo that usually shows up sometime tomorrow. You can take a look at www.blessedherbs.com and gross yourself out as well.

Hopefully no headache tommorrow. I'm really feeling like this is what I needed to curb the cravings and clean out the system.

Hugs to all

Kathy where is the adventure race update???????

Dawna

Down again .8

Hi Ladies

I thought that was pretty funny to be down .8. I guess I'm back to 48.2 lbs. lost. That is just not going to cut it. I really want to see that 50lb. mark by next week.

I cannot begin to express what your encouragement means to me Hugs, Kisses and Cheek Pinchers to each of you.

I read a devotional today that keeps coming back in my mind. As you all know the story by now Jaycee Duggar was kidnapped and held for 18 years. She had opportunities to escape however chose not to even when her captor was arrested a few years ago for a parole violation. She had totally been brainwashed and convinced she couldn't make it without him. The devotion put us in this position as it pertains to addictions and sin in our life. We are afraid to let go of something that we feel we cannot live without even though it is bad for us. We are brainwashed by its power and lies. Won't you feel deprived? You have to eat don't you? I can only imagine the evil presence that permeated that sweet girls life as it pertained to her abduction. I'm not going to lose any more of my life to its' control. Guess how long it's been? 155 at 25 and I felt fat then. That was twenty years ago. I wasn't fat by the way, just had a fat head related to my thinking and body image.

I'm planning on doing a detox when my stuff arrives which I think will be a very good thing to get things moving again and prepare me for my surgery.

Thanks for your support. I couldn't do it without the Lord and the training team he has graciously provided.

Dawna

Good Morning

I read something today that made me sad. I'm going to write a minute about it and then move on. People are hurting everywhere. I have a friend I homeschool with and she told me about how sensitive she is to other's pain. She is a nurse at Wishard and she talked about the countless people she sees that are not pleasant however she somehow can see the wounded son or daughter of God. I like that. I want to be more like that. Full of compassion, moved to action and changed by the encounter.

Today I read a blog that basically took the entire post to complain about the sinful habits of some folks. Not things like stealing or murdering or hurting her physically. It was all about their personality bumps. So many folks, me included, can take a look and quickly tear someone down in our minds pointing out all of their failures. How easy is that... If I could post I would say to her. Yes, you should have went over, yes you should have found the time to listen, yes you would have been a better example by doing this than showing your children that only the smartest, brightest and socially acceptable matter.

I'm sorry blogger but some folks just don't quite have the background and history you have. Oh yeah, you have a responsibility to them as well. Grow up, it's time. You missed a God appointment and the patient was you not them : (

Dawna

Dragging Forward

Hi

I wish this was all good stuff but it just simply isn't.... Thank you for your prayers. Yesterday was a bit better. I stayed on plan and then about 8:00 ate a piece of pizza. Why????? I don't even know.

I did make a decision to have Claire work with Jackson on his Science daily which will free me up to accomplish some other things including some type of exercise. Scott finished grouting (sp?) the tile last night and it really looks nice. The house is starting to get back together which I know will also help.

On plan today is the goal..... Track Track Track and Pray Pray Pray.

Hugs, Dawna

Wednesdays

Hi

You are all soooo great. Can you feel my hugs. I hope so. A special little kiss on your cheek Kathy R for the beautiful prayer.

It's still a struggle. Today I actually spent about 6 hours working constantly on a serious problem with exchange students. The enemy must know I'm serious because I feel it coming at me from every direction.

I appreciate your advice Jane. That is sooo true. That is exactly what I'm going to do. Just keep it simple for the whole week. I know that will make a big difference.

Kathy B (I NEED HELP) YES YOU CAN CALL SCHOOLS LIKE YESTERDAY. I have emealz and I agree that is a needed thing to keep everything running smoothe without last minute choices.

Quiet Time First (Got It)

Feeling out of control
Dawna

Tired and Overwhelmed

I really think I need to write some of this down. I'm really struggling with eating right now and I don't want to be struggling with eating : ( I find this really interesting because it really is a stress thing. It's like "HELLO" don't you get it. You have way too much on your plate and you need to balance a few things out and not just grab food that's available. I see clearly what has happened in the past.

Cycle
I have a spare moment thus I need to be doing something worthwhile. Help others, serve, give, encourage, clean, work, make money. What I notice is that I'm not on that list. Hmmmmm I'm actually wondering if I realize that I'm worthwhile. I actually think that I thought by denying myself others would pick up on this and rescue me or something. I'm not exactly sure of all the personality psycho babble involved but something is going on. I was doing a GREAT job of taking care of myself but right now I'm REALLY tired. The past four weeks have been disconnected for me. I don't like it.

Things I must do:
Have Quiet Time
School the kids
Co-op
Work
Spend Time With Scott
Work at creating a healthy lifestyle for myself and my family
My FRIENDS (I need em)

Everything else needs to stop for a bit so I can get these things running smoothly. If they fall outside of this priority list then I need to be AWARE that my energy is being taken from me and I don't have any to give.

I'm really having a tough time planning meals and shopping right now. I've got to get that schedule figured out.

Pray for me ladies. I need ya now! The goal for this week is to track every day. Plan my meals, Have my quiet time. I'm going to post a little something daily just to let you all know how it's going. Thanks for holding up my arms in the battle. They are very weary.

Love to you all
Dawna

Yes I'm Alive

Hi Girls

I am alive just VERY VERY busy. I went to WW last night and it was of course a very good meeting. I had a .8 gain which was not great but okay considering the week I'm in. I need those meetings. I'm struggling with getting it all done right now.

God,School, Work, Coop, Church, Sports, Exercise, Family, Did I say School?

A little overwhelmed with the house torn apart for painting yet eating correctly.

Thanks for the heads up and support
Dawna